pride – mayah's site

i’m so proud of us

i’m really so proud of the progress everyone i know is making. we’re defining boundaries, clearing up expectations and being our authentic, emotional selves. and for this, we just give thanks. while it might be difficult and you may feel you’re being overly sensitive or emotional, just know that it’s you growing. your emotions are indicators; take them as tools and use them to help you develop. you’re becoming the best version of you. challenge yourself. i promise it’ll be worth all the hard work.

lately i’ve been working on defining my boundaries. my only true job is to take care of me. so i’ve been working on starting to do that more. and while it’s a lot of work, i’ve already been reaping the benefits.

let this post serve as a little motivation, to keep moving forward, and to remind you that are you are seen, heard and love.

sat nam (truth is my essence),

mayah

i’m proud of myself

pride is an emotion I don’t feel very often. Many other people, especially my family, are proud of me, but I rarely feel proud of myself. for my whole life i’ve pushed myself to be the best I can be. I strived for the highest GPA, to be talented in *insert latest passion*, and to be a better person. About a year ago, I started practicing yoga faithfully. I went to my first yoga class in middle school- it was a kids class at the studio my mother works at. The class was super small- my sister and I and two other girls (who I believe were also sisters). The class never got renewed, but I loved going. I always wanted to go with my mother but I was too young to attend the adults class. Last year, my mom bought me yoga passes for the studio she works at. I was going through a rough time in my life- one of the most important relationships in my life seemed to be crumpling apart (update- we were able to grow and mature and I’m the happiest I’ve ever been). So I turned to yoga. I got into crystals, deeper into meditation and focused on myself. I started off pretty inflexible. Now I can easily hold poses like pigeon for two minutes, I can stay up for airplane and my child’s pose is deeper than ever. Whenever I do yoga, I have the same intention- to be the best yogi I can be. I live for the hard classes, where I’m unsure if I can keep going, cause when I do, I feel like I’m on top of the world. Everything I do is a reflection of how much I’ve grown. It makes me so happy. I feel like I can do anything I set my mind to. Yoga has helped me learn to love myself, just a little bit more. Right now, I’m going to yoga multiple times a week at Yoga Shelter (which is not the studio my mom works at but I love it). I’m trying to bring my loves to class with me, so wish me luck!!

New

It’s always important to test yourself and try new things. Now I don’t mean compromising your morals to try something new, I just mean trying something to have a new experience. Life is nothing but lessons and experiences to help you grow and develop as a person. I’m trying tennis as my something new. I want to do a sport to start exercising more and I think it’ll be healthy and fun for me. It’s good to try new things. You want to love yourself the most. It’s really important. I’m not saying it’s easy to cope with change I’m saying it’s necessary. It’s necessary to move forward and to just accept everything as it is. As far as relationships go just go with the flow. With time everything will be fine and revealed. Everything ends when it’s supposed to, and everything begins when it’s supposed to. It’s not coincidences, or anything of that nature. It’s all going to be okay in the end and if it’s not okay it’s not the end. You need to just keep calm and be at peace with yourself. You have to learn to be comfortable with yourself and stay happy. You must move on from bad situations and releasing the situation and thanking the universe for the experience, while learning from the situation. You have to take everything as a lesson and know that you must love yourself the most. It’s important. You have to open your heart to love. Open your mind to learning. Once you get to that point, you will attract positive people and positive experiences and love to yourself. You deserve to find your ideal person and be happy. By staying with someone who’s not good for you, you are making it harder on yourself in the long run. I’m making it sound easy because it’s just that simple. Yes it hurts a lot at first but I’m a witness that it’s fine. It’s all really going to be okay, because I’m okay. I’m actually better than okay, I’m great. I’m finally happy. It’s great. That whole situation put me out of my comfort zone because he was the first boy I have ever been with, and I learned a lot. Relationships are not accidents, you just have to learn from them. Also learn to live regret-free. Learn to accept what has happened and be at peace with it. Personally what I do is I just reflect on how I felt at the time, so no matter what happens I was doing what I wanted at the time. It’s okay to not want the same thing anymore. I just believe that you have to communicate it. Communication is very important in everything relationship. In order to have the best communication, you have to be vulnerable. You have to be really open and put your pride aside to communicate effectively. You also have to learn to trust others. It’s as easy as you want it to be. I challenge you to communicate more effectively and to try something new. Move out of your comfort zone. Start growing. Change is inevitable.