Lately, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the value of my presence. While I have for the most part valued my presence, I have come to realize that understanding the importance of your presence is essential for loving yourself. You have to know that you are important, irreplaceable and worthy of love. With this in mind, I’ve been being more conscious of the amount of effort I’m putting into other relationships. I want to be in relationships where my energy is matched. Where I feel that I can be my most authentic self. So that’s what I’ve decided to do. This summer, has really been a growing experience for me, and I’ve truly started to learn how to create boundaries and limit/increase my presence in certain situations.
One of the biggest things I’ve learned in this process is that relationships go through phases. And these phases serve purposes. While I am on this journey to love myself authentically, I’ve had a lot of alone time and also a lot of time with my mother. Experiencing the feeling of unconditional love from her (as an adult, instead of a child) really has helped me. It’s also made me more conscious of the fact that I’m important.
Today at the end of my yoga class, my instructor thanked me for coming. And after I was pondering on why my presence is always acknowledged. Because the same acknowledgment happened after I went to an event to talk about yoga teacher training, but the instructor explicitly told me that she loved my energy and I realized it’s because I am a light. My presence is important and healing, therefore it is important for me to be conscious of who I am allowing into my space but more importantly WHY i’m allowing them in my space.
I’m sharing this all to say, that acknowledging your self worth is crucial to loving yourself. So take that moment to really feel the importance of your presence.
And as always, remember it is all a growing process. Be patient with yourself.
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