emotional wellness – mayah's site

i define love as an action to support oneself or others. and i love love. i love the idea of being loved by others and others being loved as well.

one of my favorite things is to see others being loved. i think that’s my favorite thing about social media, it that i can see snippets of how others express love. while there’s always more to the story, i am always inspired by expressions of love.

it’s overwhelming at times, because it gives me so much happiness to know that others feel loved.

it’s also a reminder to me- that the love i believe in and want exists. while i know that it does, because it exists within me, it’s a reminder that love exists within each of us and that’s what connects us.

so please, love out loud. love boldly. take the word love seriously. take the commitment you make when you say you love someone seriously. how are you committing to your own wellbeing? to others? how would others want you to show your commitment? how will you show your commitment to yourself?

When I tell you, I’m so excited to be making this post, I think excited is an understatement. Last school year, I really struggled with anxiety. I was super anxious, and really my mental health was not the best. At the beginning of 2018, I was not doing that great. I remember debating about going to therapy with one of my friends and I got to the point where I was like that’s really not for em. But after addressing how much I was crying (I would say like three+ times a week) and how I felt overall, I decided I needed to do something. So since therapy just wasn’t for me, I turned to yoga and meditation. I was determined to get closer to myself and to God.

I’ll say this, I’ve been doing yoga and meditating on a regular basis for years now. But what I did was incorporate it into my daily activities. Before I feel it was more of an “i’m already stress i need to release it”, to more of a preventive measure. Like I go to yoga and meditate to continue being in my space and as a process of releasing.

It was life changing, therefore it was uncomfortable. I have changed the way I viewed relationships, love and life in general. I think all of these changes have been positive. I realized how far I’ve come this summer, when I was working at a summer camp. I was discussing with one of my coworkers about anxiety and I thought- “I haven’t had an anxiety attack in months.” I was nervous to go back to school because my mental health and emotional well being were doing so much better, but I realized that I would just have to implement what I learned into my life at college.

This journey has been full of lessons, but the most important one I’ve learned is I have to put myself first. My second favorite lesson was that I need to be where my feet are. Within the last two days, I’ve had a couple of small anxiety attacks (which were not nearly as bad as they used to be). I decided I needed to go to bed earlier, do some yoga and eat a yummy dinner. I almost instantly felt better. I was so proud of myself and I truly feel I’m learning how to take care of myself.

It’s important to take care of yourself, constantly. Doing so will change your life. Trust me, I’ve done it.