cues “too fast” by sonder.
a couple weeks ago, i endured a heart breaking loss, of my best friend. my favorite person. for about a week, i was confused, in shock and slightly in denial. for this week, it’s been mostly about accepting reality and trying to be more present.
so i’ve been doing a lot of intentional healing. more meditations and yoga (mostly kundalini), more space to think. and lately i’ve been having this fear of healing “too fast”.
like that i’ll heal and then she’ll back in and i’ll be over it. that i’ll no longer want to try.
and it’s been really getting to me.
ive been trying to live in this space of duality, where multiple truths exist. and while i acknowledge my feelings, i understand that it comes from a place of fear of change.
and me clinging to the past.
so how do i move past this?
by pushing myself to keep doing the healing. by keeping my faith strong in the fact that i KNOW all will be well.
even though it doesn’t feel well right now.